Monday, November 07, 2005
Top 10 reasons for why I haven't updated for ages:
1. I'm so very tired.
2. I need a holiday (only 4 days away from one now!)
3. I've been dead busy, honest!
4. I bought myself record decks and have been playing with them a lot.
5. The dark nights have darkened my mood in the evenings when i traditionally post.
6. I'm also less active at that time, as i've stopped stuffing myself with sweets and chocolate.
7. I've had a crappy cold that just. will. not. shift.
8. I've been in a narky mood, probably thanks to SAD.
9. My inspiration has dried up. It'll come back soon. This is the first sign of just that.
10. A lot of the debates in my head are a bit too personal to be posted up here.
I can only apologise for the lack of action here. It's somewhat ironic that as my life becomes more active, I have less time to document it. The overiding factor is the combination of the top 2 reasons. For various reasons, I haven't had any leave from work for ages, and it started taking it's toll over a month ago. Mercifully, my wait is nearly over, as this week is the last one before 2 blissful weeks off. I'll be heading East to Prague for some European mischief, which I'll be sure to tell you about when I get back (That said, in these crazy modern times, I'm sure the hotel has internet access. Then again, I intend to be far too busy. We shall see!)
And I'm sure you're all politely intrigued about reason no.10 as well. Well, let's just say I've had some internal issues to weigh up. And they're still being weighed as we speak. It's more of the 'what does it all mean?!' kinda thing that I brought up a few posts ago. Love, work, religion, death, destiny, they've all just been bubbling away under my increasingly wild hair. I find there's something about the end of the summer that makes me confront these things. Or at least the end of this summer. Because, Glastonbury aside, it didn't feel much like a summer to me. I don't mean that in a boo hoo, poor me way, but I have an awkward relationship with the summer at the best of times (trying being ginger in the sunshine, tain't fun), and this summer... felt melancholic. Living alone certainly doesn't help; that I'm discovery mightily quickly. And I'm not alone in that (I read a report on BBC News Online about more people living alone. Girls love the freedom it affords them, whereas boys suffer without anyone to talk to at the end of the day, or to organise them socially. Something borne out by conversations with many of my single male pals!)
I'm reluctant to indulge myself too much with personal revelations, simply because I'm a private person. And there's nothing that bores me more in other people's blogs than "woe is me" posting. So looking to the positives, I haven't eaten chocolate or naughty things (booze excepted, sadly) since my post over 3 weeks back, declaring my desire to improve my lifestyle. I must confess to not having actually noticed any positive improvement in my state (I still feel crap, I haven't lost any weight!) but I'm banking on this just being a delayed reaction. So my gym kit is packed for tomorrow, and I'm already looking forward to the salad I'm having for lunch (honest. grumble..) I shall keep you up to date. I'm hoping to go to Christmas, and beyond.
Anyway, I hope that makes up for the inactivity of late. I shall try and post stuff up over the week before I head to the airport, with a scant disregard for my own contempt at cheap flights. It seems my new creed is in fact hypocrisy. Still, I'm in good company. See ya later.
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